As someone who has been absolutely BAMBOOZLED by transits, ZR, and tarot colluding to point me toward an emotionally unavailable person, I feel your pain 😩 Thank you for this.
And now I’m Singing Gnarls Barkley, tears in eyes. Felt this and the all too resonant pains of optimism and close inspection. (Venus in Gemini opposite Neptune) currently activated in a desire to know the natal promise you speak of and dig it out of the pit of doom as there’s always hope! Taylor Swift has a 12th house sun, telling me there’s exceptions to every rule. But Sincere thank you for this. I appreciate your work & mind so much.
<333 Let's just say the Venus-Mars-Saturn T-square of August mirrors the way they're configured in my chart (and was another reason why I thought maybe something important would happen, as I was having the phase return).
This is so beautifully and captivatingly written, thank you for sharing Steph. I especially loved the paragraph where you wrote about the “existential glass ceiling” described by your birth chart.
LOVED reading this. the way divination is a salve and also the quickest route to one's own worst enemy can really be a mind fuck. I love where you landed with Mercury overcoming Venus with all the analysis and puzzles of it all. I came to a similar conclusion while doing The Artist's Way (which turned into a deep eros kind of work) this past summer.
LOVED THIS. It read like the kind of book I want to write—probably because it’s so relatable.
My Venus is in the 12th and at the anaretic degree (its ruler is in the 8th house—double trouble); to say that I’ve been seduced (not to mention tricked, bamboozled, and flat-out duped) by emotionally unavailable men is an understatement. I also have a chronic illness, which I “developed” in my very early twenties and felt like a right hook to my ability to “find love” in those years and every year after. It also made it more challenging to connect with men (esp. via dating apps), because I felt like I had this big secret about myself I wasn’t sure I wanted them to know…
Anyway, this felt like a story I’ve lived (except much more exotic, as I’m no traveler). Lovely prose, lovely mythology, and lovely astrology. Thank you for sharing! 🫶
Thank you, this sort of story really does strike a chord with just about everyone. I know what you mean about illness too, it feels like an additional barrier to intimacy and a hurdle to finding the kind of person I can actually "do life" with. I just keep reminding myself that it makes a good litmus test regardless of my physical condition
Beautiful, as is everything you write. And so so relatable. Patterns of heartbreak leading to jadedness leading to reclaiming your erotic sovereignty…yes!
I too pull tarot cards when I’m spiraling about a crush 🫠 thank you for sharing this story. I’ve been going through several Uranus transits lately and feel like any time I try to predict something I am deeply humbled. But will I stop? Nah.
This is why people seek a neutral third party when they're too invested in the outcome! As someone else put it, "there are some things we're just not allowed to know"
Not me randomly reading this in fresh grief, teetering on my own spiral, a few hours after my international LDR flew home again and one day after joking with a friend about how I keep ducking Dionysus' advances 🙃
</3 happy this reached you in a synchronistic and maybe needed way. It does seem as though there is no such thing as actually ducking the advances of Dionysos haha
Yeah, the first time I was talking about how I wanted nothing to do with him because I didn't think I could be trusted to work safely with that energy (Neptune tightly conj AC ruled by the 12h Saturn/Uranus conjunction) ee were sitting in circle. As I went off my friends were trying to get my attention and one of them was finally like look! And I turned around and the entire pillar candle, which was decorative and green leaf, was a flaming torch because apparently whoever made it put flammable paint on it. It literally burst into flames behind me as I was talking shit 🙃
Really enjoyed reading this. As someone who struggles to stay focused when reading, I read this in one sitting.
That is such a high compliment, thank you
Raw, with delicately profound language that cut right to the essence of these transits.
Thanks for reading <3
As someone who has been absolutely BAMBOOZLED by transits, ZR, and tarot colluding to point me toward an emotionally unavailable person, I feel your pain 😩 Thank you for this.
Bamboozled, absolutely lol
And now I’m Singing Gnarls Barkley, tears in eyes. Felt this and the all too resonant pains of optimism and close inspection. (Venus in Gemini opposite Neptune) currently activated in a desire to know the natal promise you speak of and dig it out of the pit of doom as there’s always hope! Taylor Swift has a 12th house sun, telling me there’s exceptions to every rule. But Sincere thank you for this. I appreciate your work & mind so much.
<333 Let's just say the Venus-Mars-Saturn T-square of August mirrors the way they're configured in my chart (and was another reason why I thought maybe something important would happen, as I was having the phase return).
Astro mapping your chart In my head now. 😂 and I think I got ya.
But worth mentioning you express your Venus oh so beautifully. 🙏
This is so beautifully and captivatingly written, thank you for sharing Steph. I especially loved the paragraph where you wrote about the “existential glass ceiling” described by your birth chart.
Thanks so much!
LOVED reading this. the way divination is a salve and also the quickest route to one's own worst enemy can really be a mind fuck. I love where you landed with Mercury overcoming Venus with all the analysis and puzzles of it all. I came to a similar conclusion while doing The Artist's Way (which turned into a deep eros kind of work) this past summer.
Someone needs to study this phenomenon for real
LOVED THIS. It read like the kind of book I want to write—probably because it’s so relatable.
My Venus is in the 12th and at the anaretic degree (its ruler is in the 8th house—double trouble); to say that I’ve been seduced (not to mention tricked, bamboozled, and flat-out duped) by emotionally unavailable men is an understatement. I also have a chronic illness, which I “developed” in my very early twenties and felt like a right hook to my ability to “find love” in those years and every year after. It also made it more challenging to connect with men (esp. via dating apps), because I felt like I had this big secret about myself I wasn’t sure I wanted them to know…
Anyway, this felt like a story I’ve lived (except much more exotic, as I’m no traveler). Lovely prose, lovely mythology, and lovely astrology. Thank you for sharing! 🫶
Thank you, this sort of story really does strike a chord with just about everyone. I know what you mean about illness too, it feels like an additional barrier to intimacy and a hurdle to finding the kind of person I can actually "do life" with. I just keep reminding myself that it makes a good litmus test regardless of my physical condition
Beautiful, as is everything you write. And so so relatable. Patterns of heartbreak leading to jadedness leading to reclaiming your erotic sovereignty…yes!
Absolutely <3
I too pull tarot cards when I’m spiraling about a crush 🫠 thank you for sharing this story. I’ve been going through several Uranus transits lately and feel like any time I try to predict something I am deeply humbled. But will I stop? Nah.
This is why people seek a neutral third party when they're too invested in the outcome! As someone else put it, "there are some things we're just not allowed to know"
this is such a gift! thank you for sharing this steph <3
A gift to be told so by the love devotee themselves!
This is a book I would read the shit out of!
Thank youuu
Not me randomly reading this in fresh grief, teetering on my own spiral, a few hours after my international LDR flew home again and one day after joking with a friend about how I keep ducking Dionysus' advances 🙃
Cathartic and too relatable. Thank you, Steph
</3 happy this reached you in a synchronistic and maybe needed way. It does seem as though there is no such thing as actually ducking the advances of Dionysos haha
Yeah, the first time I was talking about how I wanted nothing to do with him because I didn't think I could be trusted to work safely with that energy (Neptune tightly conj AC ruled by the 12h Saturn/Uranus conjunction) ee were sitting in circle. As I went off my friends were trying to get my attention and one of them was finally like look! And I turned around and the entire pillar candle, which was decorative and green leaf, was a flaming torch because apparently whoever made it put flammable paint on it. It literally burst into flames behind me as I was talking shit 🙃
Omg lol
…omens, why? (Venus is my SR lord currently 🙃)